Friday April 9th,2020
He hurt me.
He left his email open on my lap top. I’m a nosy bitch. So I felt that I should be able to go thorugh his lap top because he’s always so secretive when he’s texting. Like he’ll kind of stop texting when I get near him. I don’t think much of it because I trust him and he’s always with me.
Now a little something about him. He has always been an online chat type of person. He likes to collect people to have and be there for whatever he needs them for. I’ve always known this. He would express himself a lot more if its over texting or over the phone it’s just how he is.
So I go through his laptop and I find a folder that says SMS.
messages from some girl named Katt.. hundreds of them with 100+ messages in each thread.
One disgusting message from some bitch named Phanie which turns a rated x convo. She messaged him first, he says Hi Preciosa… that’s a nickname he used on me all the time.. and this was 3 year’s into our relationship. and the convo continues like this:
P: cuddle?
BF: as long as you are okay with my dick sliding into your pussy lips.
p: I rather be ther one helping you jack off and be on top.
Bf: what are you doing:
P: No dressed
him: prove it
P; I dont want to.
Him: can I call you right now?
P: sure.
The convo ends. I’m pretty sure he called her.
His excuse for this one was that he doesnt know her personally, met her on a chat. They exchanged numbers. and he only contacted her that one time because he see’s that as porn. That’s how he gets off. Disgusted at this point. He said that after that he’s never contacted her. I think that’s bullshit.
I went through his contacts and found her number, Call her. The number was from Ohio.
Then I found 2 pictures of some bitch naked, I can’t tell if someone send him that picture if he saved it from somewhere. At first I thought it was his ex, seems like he has a type.
Why is he with me? Am I the dumbass that stayed no matter what? He kept saying that I was everything to him and without me he had no life. Said that everyone he meets just leaves him.
Katt - Most of the messages were him initiating the conversations, He would do most of the asking. one fo the messages, he wished that she was with him in San Diego and he said that when WE were in San Diego for our anniversary. How fucked up is that.
He went to Washington for a work thing, for the first day I couldn’t get a hold of him for 5 hours, turns out he was also messaging her throughout the whole trip. She should have picked him up at LAX. ugh fuck him!. He’s not any different with me then he is with every other person he comes in contact with. I HATE HIM, but I love him. I though that we had something really amaizing but he’s looking to get off with someone else.
Cheating doesnt always mean physical. I count this as cheating and I’m trying really hard to get passed this.
He brought up a lot of dumb things I did, Like trying to makeout with a friend that is a girl, I was drunk and some other dumb stuff. He kept bringing it up and it seemed like what I did was worst and that I shouldn’t take it that bad.
Wendy - He told her that she can call him only after 10:30pm.. that’s when I usually fall asleep. It’s like he’s a whole completely different person when I’m not with him.
I always said that if anyone ever cheated on me, then that would be it. Easy right? we dont have kids together, we are not married nothing is holding me back for ending things. I don’t know if I am just confused or this is nothing, but it’s really affecting me.
cheating
arlene
